I am so sick of jealousy - day 14

hey my name is wina and I am a little bit envious today of people who come to Joyland, Besakih, have a date because I want that but after I think about it I cant do to my condition so I cant be envious or overthinking. 

1. I am getting period today so I cant go to Besakih

2. My phone dies every minute so it will be a problem if I use it in Joyland and I am too old for that

3. I must fix my attitude and services standard before hoping to join a competition like SEA i am still not doing my best effort (smile, say bye, and give marketing)

4. I dont have boyfriend 

Ok thats all about my feeling i will love my self first then after that can love someone else.

Ok i woke up late and take a bath then go badminton with Kambie Dina Hery and Kambie friends from DJP

I am lost but that's okay, We eat at Laba Sari at 12.00 pm the talk about Eta who is pregnant for five months now. Kambie drinks his ginger shoot and we drink a bottle of water. After paying for 4 people, it is Rp 119.000 we leave. Then after arriving at home I take a bath clean my shoe, wash my hair, clean my shirt, Oh my phone dies until tomorrow so I don't see my phone often today. After that, I clean the garden and swipe the floor, cook a noodle and give it to my family. I feel poor but that's okay. I will be the one who fixes my family's money problem. 

Then I am watching American Got Talent on my Dad phone cause my phone dies, I watch Celine nine years sing “My Heart Will Go On” by Celine Dion. And she is so talented at that age because of her father and her experience when joining the competition in China. So I believe success is followed by what you do every day. And that's is not instant.