Mother Cafe Nyuh Kuning Bali

Today I am in Mother Cafe at Nyuh Kuning Bali, Intagram @mother_bali while I am here its about 6.48 pm so it will be dark soon. I see a lot of tourist the young couple, mothers, and the oldest having their own business.  Me too. Nothing too ashamed to said that I am not take a bath yet, bring my own water and only buying a cup of latte. After I read about people salary in twitter I am in shock, because I am amaze my the nominal. I am afraid for the rest of my life I will chasing money. But that is important. When you are get older you absolutely hoping the best for your son or daughter. I mean you don't want they are suffering for what food they will eat today, because you don't have enough money to provide it. Why I am discussing about money suddenly? you must be wondering.. well I got my salary today I will elaborate it to you : I am working 25 day this November so I get Rp 2.500.000 for the main salary and others bonus total around Rp 3.2 and I am glad I make my target. But The most important question is, am I happy with it? yes I am happy, will I continue my carrier there? yes I will. Why? because they contract me for one year and I must give my best for it. Not for the company but for my self. Lots of vehicle here in Ubud, they are stuck in the traffic jam. I dont know what I am focusing on, I am floating in the water, just surrender for the wind, whose bring me anywhere, I need to love my self more, I need to open my mind and be great full for every inch God give me, but positivity can't be there whit out negativity right? I am selfish that never love anyone in my life. And the most importantly thing is I need to really work hard with what I want to achieved. Do I wanna get married ? do I wanna get rich? Do I wanna plant a tree every month? Do I really want to open my own business? Do I really want to practice my English skill? I am overthinking again looking for nothing. Oh ya I forget to tell you my story today, Wake up again at 6 am and late around 3 minuest. My Mom and Dad just go early today and leave me.. its okay. After I am at office I fell need to increase my productivity, but I also achive buy a thing. I am eat at Bu Eming and got really tiny rice Rp 10.000 I am little bit diasapointed but Its okay, after that I am go home on time. promise to my self working to my task for report of this year. A lot thing need to get done because its 2020 and new resolution new task new habbit need to build properly this year, no more drama, no more toxic people, no more depress no more ungreatfull felling, because I am life in Bali, a paradise Island. What is more good than that? healty life, family first, rituals, trandition, everyhwhere, Oh and then I need to get other pasive income, not just for money but also for the experiance, need to get it in sustainable way, wanna work at greenschool, and not just that, I need to lower my anxiety. What am I writing this is abstrac but I need to tidy it more. I also need to prommise my self to life in the momment. WELL thats is for today see you on the next story of my life.