Komingwina

hell heay, i still have hope,, that will light me out rather than think about the bad thing in the past. lets count what privileges that i still have to get money: 1. I still young 24 years old 2. I am a women 3. I live in Bali near Ubud 4. I have twin 5. I am tall and thin 6. I dont have acne 7. I understand english well i used to done my article at collage, and cd. after that get a job asap. 

Hey I'm in office, arrived at 7.40 am and become the first one in second floor. Not much to do in the morning so I write this blog. I wanna say that my life pretty much suck this year and I say it because i think "like that" while I can actually be more grateful said that "oh thanks god, I still a life". Today my dad ask me to see my step mom in her room because she is sick and always sick. I hope she can stand and be her self more rather than hanging on someone else. I don't wanna take care her. I don't wanna think about it because I don't wanna she hanging in my shoulder while I still hard to stand by my self. If u get what i mean. 

 I can't say anything just sorry for my parent. I am 24 years old right now and still can't afford a good life for me and them. I am sorry u both maybe regret adopted me as a child. I am sorry. Me being silly just focus on the bad thing about u and cant be calm not to write it here in my blog which everyone can read it. I am nasty for sure and everyone now knows that. I will not let a bad thing from outside provoke me or upset me. I still have control of my self I still have a choice even it's not much. But I will see them shine through the darkness. I am enough. The money will not enough. I will build a good habit that everyone will see that I can! Will see u five years from now. Don't forget to be good at what u belive and ur value. Don’t let others stop u

I used to shut my door While my mother screamed in the kitchen I'd turn the music up, get high and try not to listen to every little fight 'Cause neither one was right I swore I'd never be like them But I was just a kid back then The older I get the more that I see My parents aren't heroes, they're just like me 'Cause loving is hard, it don't always work You just try your best not to get hurt I used to be mad but now I know Sometimes it's better to let someone go It just hadn't hit me yet The older I get I used to wonder why, why they could never be happy I used to close my eyes and pray for a whole 'nother family Where everything was fine, one that felt like mine I swore I'd never be like them But I was just a kid back then The older I get the more that I see My parents aren't heroes, they're just like me And loving is hard, it don't always work You just try your best not to get hurt I used to be mad but now I know Sometimes it...

Hey a lot of stuff happen since the last time I am here, I actually in the middle of should prepare for work at 13.00 am at Sunsri but I think I still have a plenty of time to write here, so I am already graduated, but not official because i should done some task before 23 October 2020. My birthday will be on 30 days from now and i will turn 24 years old. I actually still have debt for my phone around Rp 2.479.000 and to my parent 2.100.000 and my step-parent Rp 1.200.000 so in total is about Rp 6.000.000 I hate I have debt and I should pay for it not hate it. But how? Sell something? I am afraid of  failure. And make it worse. I even not try as hard as i can to sell jewelry i am afraid that what i sell is too expensive. I am not confident. So after thinking about it the solution is TRY u can do a video that don't need a big modal. But here some budget that i wanna do but done your responsibility first before think of but one of that