Komingwina

Hai fellow, here I am now at office waiting for my meal. I am depress this day, why? because I thing to much about my future and my past too often. When I think about my future I have a calculation like this.. this November I turn 23 year old. If I plan to get married at 28 (deadline) I only have 5 years for now. Damn five year is really fast, and if I get salary around Rp 2.500.000 every mouth so that's mean Rp 150.000.000 cut that with my collage cost Rp 11.000.000 my dream bracelet Rp 6.000.000 and my meal and all the cost I probably BROKE. I am not ready to get married without enough asset. (to be continued)  

Hello, November ini umurku akan bertambah satu tahun, engga terasa udah 23 tahun aja, hampir setengah abad hidup dan sekarang aku mengalami stress, bukan yang berlebihan, tapi lebih ke banyak pertanyaan yan muncul untuk diri sendiri. Seperti apa yang udah aku lakukan selama hidup? apa tujuan selanjurnya? menikah umur berapa? sudah punya tabungan? mau bekerja dimana? aku terlalu focus dengan ketidak pastian masa depan dan penyesalan atas keputusan keputusan di masa lalu, seperti apakah waktu yang aku habiskan selama ini bermanfaat atau aku hanya membuang waktu untuk bersenang2 sesaat? entah kemana takdirku akan berlanjut, aku masih mencari tau, menurutku cara paling ampuh untuk mengetahuinya adalah dengan bergerak entah itu dengan menciptakan suatu karya atau mengikuti suatu kegiatan, Naif jika kukatakan aku tidak ingin berpergian karena aku ingin menghemat emisi karbon, dan menyelamatkan dunia dari global warming. Tapi pada kenyataannya aku ingin keliling dunia dan ingin ke luar neger...

hey, this is the fact that I want to tell you, first of all, welcome to my dark side. Truth be told I am born as a twin but I being adopted by my aunt and life with a step parent. Today 09 August 2019 I am very disappointed by how my stepmother told me what to do on her way!. So it starts with my decision who don't want to pray to the temple because I am born as Hinduism but questioning the presence of God. She told me to go outside and pray because that is my responsibility as a Hinduism. I refuse to accept it but I don't tell her because she is so strict traditional kind of mom who does all of the offerings to the God (that is believe doesn't exist) like since she was born. I hate the way she said to me all the way she is so tired prepare all the offerings! then why you should do it? I don't belive to the God soo why your beliefs must I follow!? I have a human right to decide which God I believe and I prefer to not believe any of it. I find out, she wants me to go out...